Full-Blown Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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